Thursday, September 27, 2012

Only The Little Girl Without A Dad

I didn't know you, and I still barely do
without you, though, I never would have breathed
you say you love me, but you hardly know me
I feel like I'm supposed to love you
but we only just met
you created me and made me who I am
for many years, you watched from the shadows
I almost believed you'd died
or maybe I just wished you had
because I was the little girl without a dad
I wondered what you were like
thought about why you weren't around
when we first met I was frightened
I was afraid to let you down
maybe you'd dreamed I was better then I was
Because, to me,
I was only the little girl without a dad
you dropped in with a new baby girl
your new love
I was angry and hurt
because she had what I didn't
she was a little girl with a dad
then you got married and had another
once more I was pused away
nine years I waited only to be ignored
the days I saw you
were joyful and fun
but when I went home to wait to see you again
all those days in between
I, again, became the little girl without a dad
everytime you said you'd call
I waited by the phone
when it didn't ring
my heart broke
over and over
because I was the little girl without a dad
I tried to believe it was okay
I told you it was
but everywhere around me
were other little girls with their dads
I became angry and sad
I became uniterested in life
knowing inside I was the little girl without a dad
over time I grew up
I eventually moved on
I got to know you better
as the years have passed
but I have never forgotten
I was the little girl without a dad


Little Girl Alone

 
Little girl alone in her room
the door shut tight
locking out the world
Little girl alone in her room
sitting on the floor
staring at the pool of red
thinking of what she's done
Little girl alone her in room
has given in
lost her strength for a moment
crying tears of guilt
little girl alone in her room
scared of what she's done
frightened of herself
wishing she could take it back
little girl alone in her room
broken and imperfect
weak and scared
shaking and crying
little girl alone in her room
always alone