Friday, November 30, 2012

John

That spot at the table
is painfully empty
where you used to sit

The jokes
go untold
The ones you used to tell

The truck in the yard
is abandoned
the one you would drive

Nothing can bring you back
no matter how much we try
we love you
we miss you

The teasing
goes undone
the teasing you would do

I love you
I wish you could come back
but you never can

I love you

My Friend, My Love, My Prince, My Everything

Black hair, black jeans, black Ts
Black, black, black
This was you and me

White face, white wrists, white scars
White, white, white
underneath the masks
You were so beautiful 
compared to me

Night sky filled with stars
down by the water
no clouds to be seen
there we layed
you holding me

My friend
my love
my prince
my everything

Autumn

Staring out the open window,
the wind blowing
scattering the fallen leaves
red, yellow, and orange
an autumn breeze
chills my skin,
making me shiver,
looking up at the sky
cloudless and blue
birds flying around
calling to one another
soon out of sight
another breeze
rustles the trees
causing them to sway
seeming as though
they are dancing with the wind
some of them bare
preparing for winter
others still clinging 
to the last of summer

Winerty World

White snow falling from the sky
landing on the ground
sticking to the trees
pure white world
boy in all black
standing in the midst
of a wintery wonderland
snowflakes resting on his black hair
only for a moment

Good Little Girl

Nobody really notices that girl
the one in the back of the room
dressed in all black
heavy eyeliner
a fat lip and cuts on her wrist

all the children around her
are so high on themselves
they don't even notice her

to them she is mute
she doesn't seem to speak
to them she is invisible
she doesn't seem to exist

the girl who goes unnoticed
doesn't really mind
blending in with the shadows isn't so bad
nobody around to please or anger

it isn't so bad
she has convinced herself
the physical pain
numbs the emotional pain

outside those four walls of "home"
it's not so bad
nobody pays attention to her
nobody to praise or abuse her
not like at home

what goes on inside those walls
is no secret
people know
they simply don't care

she tries her best
to cover the bruises
but sometimes it hurts to much
sometimes she can't even move

everyday though she returns home
being a good little girl
hoping that it might be different 
but it never is

I Am Dead Inside

The art is gone from my fingertips
along with the beauty from my life
there is no love left in my broken heart
the life is gone from my eyes

I am dead inside

The pain doesn't hurt anymore
nothing gives me pain or pleasure
the world holds no interest
not to me anymore

I am dead inside

The darkness knows what I've become
along with who I once was
the world doesn't care
nobody wants a broken toy

I am dead inside

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

XXXXX

Day after day
memories float through my head
and when I lay down for bed
they don't every go away

reminders of the past
things of who I used to be
times of you and me
that went by oh so fast

nights spent up late
down by the river
holding me while I shiver
always joking that it wasn't a date

during bad nights
I would call, you'd come
and stay 'til the morning sun
even during our little fights

so many happy nights and days
filled with smiles and laughter
along with promises of forever after
saying we'd never go our seperate ways

then one summer day
it was just us two
bored and didn't know what to do
thought we'd give it all away

best friends 'til the end
didn't think it's change ever
now we're bother changed forever
our friendship reached the end

we never told anyone
it was our secret
but the strongest of locks couldn't keep it
it started with one and reached everyone

I miss you
it's that simple
I miss you and your dimples
I really do

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

You Finally Got Your Dance

The moonlight is shining
off the clear water
we stand upon the shore
with the city all around
one by one
the lights turn off
watching the water's riples
we hold one another
slowly we begin
to turn to our own music
the beating of our hearts
the last light turns off
it's just you, me and the moon
we twirl around and around
holding each other close
dancing by the water side
beneath the white moon
two kids in all black
the outcasts of the school
the misfits of the world
sorry that it took so long
but, baby, you finally
got your dance

I am dead inside

The art is gone from my fingertips
along with the beauty from my life
there is no love left in my broken heart
the life is gone from my eyes

I am dead inside

The pain doesn't hurt anymore
nothing gives me pain or pleasure
the world holds no interest
not to me anymore

I am dead inside

the darkness knows what I have become
along with who I once was
the world doesn't care
nobody wants a broken toy

I am dead inside