Eight years

Eight long years
I have held back these tears
You took away te safety if my bed
At night, I'm afraid to lay down my head
Eight years ago you hurt me
You couldn't let me be
Are you happy you took my innocence away
Happy knowing I don't want to love another day
I hope our happy, me, I'm forever scarred
Thanks to you trust for me is hard
Nothing I can do will make this go away
That night is in my memory to stay
Eight long years
I have fought these tears
But tonight I'm letting go
And you'll never know

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My smile is fading away
It's getting harder each day
I feel like I'm just an object to you
Something you'll throw away when you're through
Each day I look into your eyes
Seeking the truth finding only lies
To think I'm only a toy hurts me
That is not what I want to be
I want to be more
Do you even want me anymore
I thought we were gonna be great
But now I've realized my fate
To you I am only a toy
Just like with every other boy

Loner Girl

Sitting on the floor with your knees to your chest

staring absently at the rest

scared of what they would do if they knew

all that was inside of you

sadness reaches deep into your dreams

you look around realsing silent screams

no one else seems to hear

or see what you do in the mirror

you're just a loner girl

waiting for someone to give you the world

Memory That Won't Fade

The room is cold and black

all those memories come flooding back

a lonely girl, so fragile and small

screams for someone, anyone at all

she can't shake this frightening feeling

or stop her head from reeling

All the tears tonight have dried

it can't be forgotten, she's tried

days, months, years have gone by

she keeps living this lie

the strength she had wasn't enough

he saw through her bluff

everything she had, he took away

nobody had made him pay

she is eternally scarred

her insides broken and marred

he never knew what he put her through

a mistake she can never undo

the word hurts to be spoken aloud

the tears are like rain from a cloud

he's probably forgotten, she never shall

he was a rpaist not her pal

a danger she'd have never seen

before he was never mean

her trust has faded away

in her memory that nigh is bound to stay 

Little One

Little one, walking home, nobody sees your pain

They can't see your tears through the rain

Mommy and Daddy don't seem to care

just how hard each day is to bear

You fight the pain and make it through

deep inside there is a strength in you

Dad aftr day you wear a plastic smile

even if it is just for awhile

Lullaby

Close your eyes, rest your head

forget the day and go to bed

lose yourself in the music's beat

let it wash away this feeling of defeat

slowly drift into sleep

one by one count the sheep

let your cares drift away

worry about them another day

A Boy and A Girl

An old tree

fallen down and decaying

two teenage kids

hiding from the world

a girl with an abusive mother

a boy with a broken heart

holding eachother close

trying to protect one another

 

trash all around

soda cans and plastic bags

two broken people

hiding from the world

a girl with cuts on her arm

a boy with gashes on his chest

holding eachother close

accepting one another's flaws

 

blue cloudless skies

hiding about green trees

so beautiful

two hurting souls

hiding from the world

a girl with skinny jeans

a boy with converse on his feet

hiding from the world

holding eachotehr close

loving one another unconditionally