Could Anyone Ever Understand?

Could anyone ever understand?
why do they hate me?
I never wished for this hurt
I never dreamed of this pain

I like being alone...
nobody can hurt me there
I  could just die...
nobody would notice

Could anyone ever understand?
this isn't an act...
why do they hate me?
this isn't an act...

I wish I could tell you...
but you wouldn't understand
I wish I could show you...
but you wouldn't notice

The scars your words have left
do you know that it hurts?
the tears your actions have left
do you know that it hurts?

The lies I tell myself
that everything can be better
the lies I show the world
that i'm okay, nothing is wrong

Do you know what this pain is
do you see my mask
the one in black
that says I'm tough

The mask you say you hate
the one yu believe is fake
the one that protects me
the mask that keeps me here

Hide the scars on thee's wrist
they can never know they exist
they will take you away

If you let them see, the hurt
you wrote upon your wrist
they will lock you up
they will turn away

nobody can understand
they say. "I love you"
but love is more then words