Desperate To Be Something More

I wanna be something more
More like the girl I was before
WIthout secrets or lies
With happiness in her eyes

I want to get out of this rut
I wish I had never cut
When I took out the knife
I wanted to end my life

I commited a crime
Now I do the time
But I wish to be something more
like the girl I was before

A girl with a smile that isn't fake
or a life she wishes to take
Something I want, but can never own
for I will always be alone

The blade has left its mark
I'm bleeding in the dark
I want my old life back
But I let it slip through the crack

It was a cry of desparate needs
I sit and watch as it bleeds
The razor's work can not be undone
the blood is already drawn, nothing can be done

The scars are already made
I wish for them to fade
All I want is to be something more
Like the innocent one I was before

I want to smile
for more then a while
I want it to be real
I want to feel

I bleed out all my hurt
I bleed into the dirt
Cutting out the need
Satisfied as I bleed

Something I was, Something to be
This girl is no longer me
I want to find her soon
let her shine in the light of the moon

Let her shine through
the dark, is hard to do
I have shut her out
and heard her shout

I just wanna be something more
more like the one I was before